SEXUAL HEALING
David, experience can be a good teacher. I am going to tell you my short story: If I had been sexually experienced before marrying my husband, I would have known he wasn’t the right man for me to marry. I am very religious; he is not, though he sometimes goes to church. He calls himself a Christian. I don’t have any problem with that. Before meeting him, I was dating casually, nothing serious. Not so much sex. I knew I wasn’t a virgin but I wasn’t ready to be jumping into sex. We became friends and I liked our friendship. I didn’t want to have sex with somebody simply because I wanted to have sex. When I met my husband, I thought he was the one. Everything checked in my list. Sex was the only thing I couldn’t mark. He wanted to test drive my engine but I made him wait forever. I got a hint that he was sleeping with some ladies, and I thought maybe it was my fault because I wasn’t giving him sex. Instead of breaking things off, I kept it to myself and agreed to marry him when he asked me to.
After the wedding, sex was not so great to me as he felt it was for him. He is always happy after sex and I try to make him feel like it was good. But Dave, it’s not because of his ego; I try to tell him to get things done to me to arouse my mood but he is used to a style of sleeping with women, he probably thinks it works for every woman. He started to cheat on me again. That same time, my ex boyfriend showed up. Dave, this is a guy who can take one-hour to study my naked body in bed before touching me in a special way. He can let me lie on my back, lift both of my legs, spread them, to just gaze deeply in my cookie for 30 minutes; tell me all the wonderous stories he sees down there. That alone can make me orgasm five times. This ex is someone I connect with because of the way he worships my womanhood. Whenever I am in a good mood at home, I feel like my husband thinks it’s because of something he has done. But it’s always because I had been reviewed by the other guy in a memorable way.
I am still married to my husband. He doesn’t know what I am doing behind his back. The thing is Dave, we’re the wrong team in this marriage. I don’t like the idea of divorce that’s why I am still married. A lot of us married women are willing and open to compromise, but our husbands should be too. No woman should be the only person giving things up in a relationship. Dave, sacrifices are very different than compromises. If you and your spouse are not equally satisfied, then there hasn’t been compromise. I want to tell ladies to be sure their happiness and comforts are considered in all situations.
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