Checking-In On Ourselves

Nyakpoo: Hello David

David Bondze-Mbir (DBM): Hello sir

Nyakpoo: Yipee

DBM: Lol!

Nyakpoo: Finally. This is my third hello to you in three years. I’ve always wanted to share my love story with your audience.

DBM: Nice to meet you.

Nyakpoo: Nice to meet you, Dave.

DBM: I’m all ears.

Nyakpoo: Before I got married, my old boy sat me down to be sure I was cut out for it. Like him, I had made so many bad decisions in my dating life that negatively affected a lot of the women who had fallen in love with me. In my dad’s case, bringing children into it was the unforgivable part of his marriage. He told me that he felt he wasn’t mature enough to do marriage with my mother, though he was in his 30’s. My mom was ready to be a wife and mother but he wasn’t sure he was mentally and emotionally healthy to do the give and take in a serious commitment.

DBM: Why did he marry your mother?

Nyakpoo: She was pregnant with me. Also, he said she was hot.

DBM: Lol!

Nyakpoo: My dad was fluttering from one woman to the other, and that was pretty much my life too. I wasn’t interested in forming any ties yet. And there were no bounds, so I was meeting and having so much fun with different women who would come and go. I remember my father asking me one day if I had the maturity, patience and trust to be okay on the days, weeks or months that my wife wouldn’t feel like having sex with me. That was a tough question to answer because I am the very physical type of person when dating. My love language is… You know, in bed.

DBM: Your love language is in bed?

Nyakpoo: Anything vanilla under the sheets.

DBM: Smh!

Nyakpoo: He also wanted to know if I was willing to put in the needed time, the thoughtfulness, the level of self-control and sacrifice to make a marriage work. These were conversations I had never had with him before. In fact, I was very surprised he wanted to talk to me about it because in my eyes, he was the perfect example of a father and husband to look up to but no, he told me he failed my mother as her husband.

DBM: Did he explain his definition of failure?

Nyakpoo: His definition was everything my life with women had become. I was living without care and only interested in the casual. I realized I had been manipulating and deceiving women to get what I wanted without any intention of being in a committed relationship with them.

DBM: Why did you want to marry your wife?

Nyakpoo: She was pregnant with my child

DBM: Let me guess, and she was hot? Lol

Nyakpoo: Lol. Yes, she was very hot. I’m my father’s son. But that was not that. I had introduced her to my parents and I think my mother had told her to be sure she wanted to do life with me. My mum doesn’t know about my personal lifestyle but she assumed I was just like my father, and was cautioning my wife to be careful with her heart. To be honest, I was really hurt she could say that to my woman.

DBM: Why were you hurt? She wasn’t lying about you, was she?

Nyakpoo: She wasn’t but she shouldn’t have. Because of what she told her, my wife started to feel a little confused, and was constantly questioning my intentions.

DBM: What were your intentions for her?

Nyakpoo: I didn’t have any but I cared.

DBM: I see. How did you two first meet?

Nyakpoo: We met in a bar. I’m usually the first to walk up to a pretty woman I am interested in but with her, I couldn’t get myself to approach her. And I knew I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself if I didn’t at least, try.

DBM: What was your initial intention for the first approach?

Nyakpoo: To know her and maybe f**k with her. But we talked for almost an hour and went our separate ways. Days later, I found myself showing up to her office with a basket of goodies for an office break picnic. She was cooked.

DBM: Lol! You liked her that much huh?

Nyakpoo: I hadn’t done that before. Also, my life was all over the place and a bit questionable, and I had been trying to answer with women, sex and alcohol. Becoming friends with her changed my attitude about everything. My life I think took a few twists and turns that later on forced me to want to straighten it out. Her love for her parents inspired me to also be visiting my mother and father more often.

DBM: What about her made her stand out and not blend in?

Nyakpoo: I desired her in ways I hadn’t needed a woman before, and that made me want to be a better man for her. I developed a kind of love I had never felt for anyone.

DBM: Nice. I’ve already asked this question but I’d like to ask again, why did you want to marry your wife?

Nyakpoo: Honestly Dave, I’d never thought of having a family with anyone. My life was all about going with the flow. However, my wife was the only woman who ever made me feel at peace when I thought about the possibility of a marriage. She was my definition of what felt right to me. She had a lot of love in her to give.

DBM: Can you explain that?

Nyakpoo: I saw the way she loved her parents and siblings. How she loved her close friends and some of the people she worked with. The love she shared in her circle of friends, even when some of her colleagues were hard to love. I just couldn’t look past that. It said a lot about her. She doesn’t know this but she taught and showed me how to love by the way she filled me up with so much of her love for me.

DBM: How long have you been married?

Nyakpoo: We’ve done 15 years so far.

DBM: And, has it been easy?

Nyakpoo: This is what I’ve been doing every weekend since we got married; I check in on my wife to know how I’m doing as her husband. I ask if she’s happy in the marriage. I ask if she’s okay. I ask if there’s anything I could do to improve her life or ours, as a couple. Whatever her responses are to these questions, I try to do the best I can to make it up to her in the week. She picked up on my line of questioning and started doing the same with me every Sunday. I check in on her every Saturday, and she checks in on my needs every Sunday. It has made our 15 years together as husband and wife so easy.

DBM: Oh wow! I’ve never thought of that. I’m going to copy this check-in tactic and practice it in my own marriage. We say ‘I love you’ everyday but I have never been the type to check in to know if I make happy. Thank you for this insight.

Nyakpoo: Because she’s been checking in on my needs, I’ve never felt the need to even cheat on her.

DBM: I figured. Huh! This is good information. I like you

Nyakpoo: Thanks Dave. I like you too.

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